I have an interesting relationship with my hair. I guess you could call it a love-hate relationship, although most of my life was spent on the “hate” aspect. Only recently have I begun to embrace my naturally curly, thick, and yes, often frizzy hair.
Here is a brief history of my relationship with my hair.
Infancy
When I was born, I had only a small tuft of hair on an otherwise bald head. My uncle jokingly referred to me as “Bert” (as in Bert from Sesame Street). Although I have no recollection of this time, my mom still likes to laugh about it. So I still have to deal with embarrassment over a hairstyle that I don’t even remember.
Early Childhood (2-5)
This was the time of my life when my hair game was at its peak. My hair was still baby soft and fine, but it had already formed curls. My mom kept is short, so I had smooth ringlets in an adorable bob. If I could go back to a time when my hair was like this, I would.
Childhood (6-12)
This was around the time when I started resenting my hair. My hair grew thicker and longer, so my mom kept me in ponytails. One thing I now know about my hair is that it does not agree with tight, pulled back ponytails. My baby hairs stick up everywhere and the pony tail frizzes out. I distinctly remember being asked by a blonde girl with smooth hair why my hair stuck up. I didn’t even notice it until she pointed it out, but from then on I wished to have hair that didn’t stick up in a pony tail.
Teenage Years (13-18)
Throughout middle and high school, I used the “crunchy head” approach to handling my hair. I had no idea how to care for it, so instead I slathered it in hair product: gel, mouse, and hairspray. I ended up with a combination of products that left my hair stiff and sticky. I spent my time envious of people with thin, straight, and smooth hair. Instead of even giving my natural hair a chance, I made sure that I never left the house without hair product.
Hair Damage Year (18-19)
Immediately after graduating and getting my first job, I invested in an expensive flattening iron so I could crush my hair into the straight, smooth hair I always wanted. I spent a summer straightening my hair three times a week, which of courses let to split ends, dryness, and damage that I’m still trying to recover from. To make matters worse, when I stated college I experimented with color, just adding to the damage to my poor hair.I stopped straightening it for the sake of time, but I continued trying out different products to fix the horrible damage I had left to my once healthy hair.
I still like the look of straight hair from time to time, but it’s not worth the damage.
The Present: Recovery and Natural Hair (20 years old)
These days, I’m trying to repair the damage that years of hair abuse has caused. I’ve stopped using heat and drying hair products. I’ve learned about how curly hair works and how to best care for it. My hair is prone to dryness, so I make sure to use a good conditioner. I don’t shampoo every day, and I only comb/brush when wet. The only product I use is a hair oil by Garnier Fructis for added moisture.
My curls are healthier now than ever. For the first time, I’ve rejected fantasies of other people’s hair and embraced my natural hair. I can tell that my hair is getting healthier, and I receive all kinds of compliments from people who wish they had curls. No matter what, there will be someone’s hair you want more than yours, but there will be someone else who wants your hair. Rock the hair you were born with, experiment with different styles, colors, and cuts, but make sure to take care of it.
No, I don’t curl my hair. #iwokeuplikethis #naturalcurls